To the Moon and Back - My Mothering Journey

We have a wedding to attend tomorrow.

A friend of mine from school is getting married and I am so happy for her! We don't talk all that often and it's great that she still considers me a close enough friend to share her special day with.

There are going to be a lot of others I knew from school. One was a very close friend until we had a falling out before my own wedding. She got married last weekend and has two beautiful 6 month old twin girls.

It's amazing how far we'v come since highschool. It's a cliche but it really does only feel like yesterday but it's already been 5 years!!

It makes me wonder where I will be in another 5 years time. So much has happened already that I wonder what I could possibly do next - is there anything else to look forward too?

Maybe this next baby is holding off a little as a way of telling me to slow down and enjoy what I have. I have a wonderful husband who I will be sharing our 2nd anniversary with on the 5th November, and a beautiful daughter who is 18 months old tomorrow. Life is good.

I have been down in the dumps lately. I've been on edge, angry, annoyed and frustrated a lot of the time and I really hate being this way. I've wondered whether it would be in my best interest to start taking my antidepressants again to see if that makes a difference but then I stop myself because I don't want to conceive and be on AD at the same time. I suppose I could stop as soon as I know I'm up the duff...will have a think about it.

So anyway, I was in town this morning and Ella decided she'd have her first public tantrum - IN THE MIDDLE OF CROSSROADS CHANGE ROOM! It wasn't as embarrassing as I thought it would be but I suppose thats because we were both behind closed curtains and I couldn't see the faces of anyone that could hear her screaming!

I hope that next time I will keep my composure as I did this time but we shall see!