It's weird how my doctor seems to have worked out my estimated due date (EDD) 3 days later than what I had. I've used online tools that all say that I am due the 27th July yet she's told me I'm due the 30th?
I did work out that I gave her the wrong date (and have been using the wrong date) of the first day of last AF - I keep saying the 20th October but it was the 21st. Which means that dates are all stuffed up again!!
It doesn't really matter though, I have the dating scan in 2 weeks for that! It seems to be dragging by so slowly....I'm kind of wondering whether this bub will stick....
I have no reason to think that I may miscarry - apparently having PCOS doesn't affect implantation like I thought it did, according to my doctor. But knowing how early it is, and that bub would be no bigger than half a grain of rice, it's entirely plausible that the little mite may not make it. :(
I need the ultrasound to confirm things, I think. Just to double check that it is there and that the 2 HPT were right and I wasn't imagining things! I must admit though, I'm still holding myself back from peeing on another test just to double check....
Anyhooo, not a lot to report - no sickness, nausea, cravings etc. No symptoms whatsoever apart from my boobs are now huge again...
We're back in a waiting game I guess.
What started out as a TTC blog has now turned into a wonderful journey of motherhood. This is my story, a million times different to anyone elses but yet similar all the same.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Updates!
Wow! I've been in a bit of a daze since getting the long-awaited BFP on Friday!
After no symptoms whatsoever and little reason to test (AF wasn't even late, it was due that day!) I was shocked to finally see that second line pop up almost instantly. I showed hubby who confirmed that there was, indeed, another line but he commented that it was faint. I told him it didn't matter, it pretty much meant that I am pregnant!
I told my sister that afternoon, on the way to buy another HPT for the following morning - just in case! She's the only family member we've told so far. We're waiting until Christmas day (I should be around 9 weeks by then) to tell the Grandparents - thought it'd be a nice suprise for them! I hope!
I was thinking of putting Ella in a shirt that says "Big Sister" or something similar and see who is the first to catch on! Either that, or get a few extra printouts at our 7 week scan and frame them, wrap them up and put "From Santa" on the label....not sure yet!
So I saw my doctor yesterday. I was so afraid of the whole overweight chat but she was actually really good. She went on about my Gardisil injections (for cervical cancer) and whether I was going to get the rest before I stopped her and said "That's a great idea, but I don't think it's such a great idea while I'm pregnant". I think she was a tad shocked but went on to refer me for an ultrasound on the 12th December.
She asked me if I planned to deliver at the Regional and this is when I said that I was over the weight threshold so it depended on how much I can lose/keep off before bub is due. I think she could tell that I knew all the consequences of being an overweight pregnant woman in a country town - which I do.
She assumed I was a public patient, too, because I asked for my ultrasound referral to be at the public hospital (simply because I've been there before and feel 'safer' there for the moment) and said that she is no longer delivering public patients - so I think I may end up going private for this reason - she's a good doctor and I'm hoping that I will eventually be able to give birth here, instead of in Perth.
Either way, it doesn't matter. At this stage I am still trying to get my head around the fact that I am doing this all again!!
Can't wait for the ultrasound, maybe then it'll all seem a bit more real.
After no symptoms whatsoever and little reason to test (AF wasn't even late, it was due that day!) I was shocked to finally see that second line pop up almost instantly. I showed hubby who confirmed that there was, indeed, another line but he commented that it was faint. I told him it didn't matter, it pretty much meant that I am pregnant!
I told my sister that afternoon, on the way to buy another HPT for the following morning - just in case! She's the only family member we've told so far. We're waiting until Christmas day (I should be around 9 weeks by then) to tell the Grandparents - thought it'd be a nice suprise for them! I hope!
I was thinking of putting Ella in a shirt that says "Big Sister" or something similar and see who is the first to catch on! Either that, or get a few extra printouts at our 7 week scan and frame them, wrap them up and put "From Santa" on the label....not sure yet!
So I saw my doctor yesterday. I was so afraid of the whole overweight chat but she was actually really good. She went on about my Gardisil injections (for cervical cancer) and whether I was going to get the rest before I stopped her and said "That's a great idea, but I don't think it's such a great idea while I'm pregnant". I think she was a tad shocked but went on to refer me for an ultrasound on the 12th December.
She asked me if I planned to deliver at the Regional and this is when I said that I was over the weight threshold so it depended on how much I can lose/keep off before bub is due. I think she could tell that I knew all the consequences of being an overweight pregnant woman in a country town - which I do.
She assumed I was a public patient, too, because I asked for my ultrasound referral to be at the public hospital (simply because I've been there before and feel 'safer' there for the moment) and said that she is no longer delivering public patients - so I think I may end up going private for this reason - she's a good doctor and I'm hoping that I will eventually be able to give birth here, instead of in Perth.
Either way, it doesn't matter. At this stage I am still trying to get my head around the fact that I am doing this all again!!
Can't wait for the ultrasound, maybe then it'll all seem a bit more real.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Working it out.....
....and I realised that AF is due tomorrow. I hadn't realised how close it was.
In regards to any symptoms I have, nothing. No big boobs, no nausea/tiredness/hungriness. No flutterings or inklings AT ALL. About the only thing I can report is mild cramping which most likely means AF is on her way....
I've made the decision to see my doctor. I will make an appointment today even, just so I don't chicken out and avoid going again. I've been so scared of what she will say. I know that the main thing she will concentrate on is my weight - and I know she is right. I need to get it under control. I just couldn't bear the thought of being turned away, told to lose weight and come back in 6 months time for any more TTC assistance. I think I would go crazy.
I have decided that, if she doesn't want to help until I've lost some weight, that I will be going on a soup diet for a month. It sounds so freakin' extreme but that is just how desperate I am getting.
I don't care HOW I lose the weight, I don't care if I put it all back on once pregnant/bubs is born, I just want to lose it to fall pregnant...if that even works. I want to lose it to show my doctor just how serious I am about having another baby - that I will do anything it takes - including stupid fad diets. I might even buy some Xenical and give that a go too.
I know how irrational all that sounds but I am that desperate to try anything....
It's time. Naturally hasn't worked. We've given it a good go but it's just not working. Now is time for some drastic actions.
In regards to any symptoms I have, nothing. No big boobs, no nausea/tiredness/hungriness. No flutterings or inklings AT ALL. About the only thing I can report is mild cramping which most likely means AF is on her way....
I've made the decision to see my doctor. I will make an appointment today even, just so I don't chicken out and avoid going again. I've been so scared of what she will say. I know that the main thing she will concentrate on is my weight - and I know she is right. I need to get it under control. I just couldn't bear the thought of being turned away, told to lose weight and come back in 6 months time for any more TTC assistance. I think I would go crazy.
I have decided that, if she doesn't want to help until I've lost some weight, that I will be going on a soup diet for a month. It sounds so freakin' extreme but that is just how desperate I am getting.
I don't care HOW I lose the weight, I don't care if I put it all back on once pregnant/bubs is born, I just want to lose it to fall pregnant...if that even works. I want to lose it to show my doctor just how serious I am about having another baby - that I will do anything it takes - including stupid fad diets. I might even buy some Xenical and give that a go too.
I know how irrational all that sounds but I am that desperate to try anything....
It's time. Naturally hasn't worked. We've given it a good go but it's just not working. Now is time for some drastic actions.
Friday, November 14, 2008
It's like a knife stabbing through me....
....and I HATE HATE HATE IT!
If you remember, a few posts back, I attended a friends wedding. That same friend has just announced her pregnancy, she's 14 weeks! Whilst I am so very happy that she's starting her family, I have this distinct feeling of jealousy.
I hate it! Why can't I just be normal and accept that everyone deserves to have their own family and just be happy for them?? I don't want the extra feelings that accompany it.
I literately feel sick. My stomach is churning, there's a lump in my throat and I feel close to tears....I am becoming bitter aren't I?
OH GOD I WANT ANOTHER BABY! PLEASE!
Okay, now the tears are flowing.....
If you remember, a few posts back, I attended a friends wedding. That same friend has just announced her pregnancy, she's 14 weeks! Whilst I am so very happy that she's starting her family, I have this distinct feeling of jealousy.
I hate it! Why can't I just be normal and accept that everyone deserves to have their own family and just be happy for them?? I don't want the extra feelings that accompany it.
I literately feel sick. My stomach is churning, there's a lump in my throat and I feel close to tears....I am becoming bitter aren't I?
OH GOD I WANT ANOTHER BABY! PLEASE!
Okay, now the tears are flowing.....
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Blissfully Ignorant...for now.
Well I haven't felt the urge to update this thing for about a fortnight now. I know its our TTC blog so I try not to go off topic too much so recently, because I've had nothing to say about TTC, I've just not updated.
I have no idea what CD I am on, or if I've ovulated or when AF is due. I am, as the title suggests, blissfully ignorant...for now.
I know it will come back to bite me on the ass soon, as always.
Gosh, even now I am struggling to think of something to write for this thing but I just honestly don't have anything to say.
Is it possible that I've just had enough of thinking about it and I've simply run out of things to say?
Who knows. Maybe I will be back again soon with something a bit more interesting!
I have no idea what CD I am on, or if I've ovulated or when AF is due. I am, as the title suggests, blissfully ignorant...for now.
I know it will come back to bite me on the ass soon, as always.
Gosh, even now I am struggling to think of something to write for this thing but I just honestly don't have anything to say.
Is it possible that I've just had enough of thinking about it and I've simply run out of things to say?
Who knows. Maybe I will be back again soon with something a bit more interesting!
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